So in talking to a fellow nurse I realized how different we are. We put on this face of happiness and comfort. We hold hands and cry with people in their time of need, we comfort and love when your sad, we encourage and cheer in your recovery. We hold your families when it's time for you to leave this world.
What you dont see is the mind that is always working, always planning for the what if this bad thing happens. You dont see them walk out of a room and swell with pride becasue they finally got that stubborn old man to take his heart medicine, or watched a baby finally catch their breath. You dont see them find the dark hall or closet to hide in and fall to their knees and cry ugly tears because they had to say goodbye to part of their heart when a patient passes. You don't know they doubt everything they do because the all knowing doctors make them feel less than. You dont see their insecurities or fears.
Every day they wake up from very little sleep, drag through their morning which is any time of day because nursing is 24/7. They put on their uniform and wonder why did I choose to do this job. Their lives could be chaos at home, they could never see their kids because of the long hours or different shifts. The get to work sit in the parking lot and think this is it game face on, still wondering why they do it. Th9e walk in the doors of what ever building they work in and see the first smiling face and they are reminded then why, its for the patients. It's to be your voice when no one else will. To be your support when all others have left. To be your strength when you cant fight.
We are a special breed, because we dont ask for the same. We stand as a whole we are our own community. So I ask this of you, why do you treat the nurse so badly when they will be the one to hold your hand and support you in the joyous and sorrowful moments?
Now many will say "I dont do that I respect nurses" the thing is your dont realize you do. Your fears come out in many ways and they always zero in on the nurse. I know I know there are a few rotten apples in my community but know most of us got into this because we need to care for others, we feel joy when we help and bring you peace.
The reason I'm writing this is because most subs here hold very powerful demanding jobs. Some of us where we make life altering choices daily. Some of us then go home to our real job of parenting where once again were in charge. Yet we are asked why are we a sub, or told we are to Alpha in our day to day that we should be a Dom.
This is exactly the reason I am a sub. I need someone to quiet my mind. To give me the safety I give everyone else. To be the rock i am for others. So before you tell someone with a demanding powerful job why? maybe you should think why wouldnt they be?
I am a sub because I choose to be. Its who I am in my core. I am a nurse and mother because it's my calling to care and nurture and fight for those who cant. So who will fight for me?
4 years ago. February 22, 2020 at 3:58 AM
