Just me

So as today is my late day for work I was thinking about how frustrated I am. No not that way get your mind out of the gutter! Anywho I am exhausted mentally and physically. Small little things I normally do have slipped my mind so I feel like I've screwed up at work. Not always the case but I am a over thinker.
Okay heres the thing and it's just my view not others out there in the front lines please dont think I am speaking for everyone. I appreciate the thank you's and great jobs and how we are appreciated but what I really need is the friends who check in to see how I am doing. If I'm really okay. I understand everyone is faced with a major challenge lately and I get it. My point is please while your at home upset because you cant help or work remember those of us that would gladly trade places with you for a moment.
The thing is you can help, check in with those who are your friends, dont panic when you dont hear from us because we are working. Also please think about gloves and masks. As you use the disposable ones places such as nursing homes and hospitals dont have them. I get off work and I see the roads littered with them all I can think is that's gold for my staff. We dont even have enough and yet people are throwing them on the ground like they are nothing. It saddens my heart that I cant properly protect my staff and yet they are so easily given and tossed away to the community.
I wish this would go away and life could rebuild. I wish everyone had some peace but right now we dont. What I ask is when you ask a front line worker if they are okay and they say yes dig a little deeper. Dont just take they yea I'm good. We did choose to help people we did choose these jobs but the fear we feel is stuffed away because we dont want to cause panic for you. Also the media is not going to give you accurate information they get paid from ratings. So what causes good ratings fear and unknown. They make it seem like we are lying about facts when it is them twisting information. Again I am not slamming their profession but please dont always believe what you hear.
I'm sure this made no sense because lately that's how my brain has worked. What I ask is please while you talk to a frontline worker remember I would gladly stay home but I choose to fight to keep you safe, I just need a friend to know and really care how I am. (Yes I have those that do) please stay at home and stay safe because we dint need more lives lost. I will protect those I can till my last breath, I will care for those who cant till my hands refuse to work, I will calm fears as my own scream inside and I will comfort those who need it even when I feel isolated with people around me.
Thank you to those of you who support someone out there fighting. Thank you to thise who are staying home like you should and to those frontline workers remember we are doing what we love caring for people, find your strength and keep fighting we will win this!
💜phe💜