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The words that fall out. Creative writing poetry stream of consciousness dreams. The good the bad and the ugly. Very important to me- I greatly appreciate any readers, greatly appreciate being seen felt and heard.
2 years ago. January 6, 2022 at 2:27 AM

His mouth on my mouth rousing me and everything literally turns to black space nothingness around my be only Him and I are real. Instantly I take my clothes off if He would have me, I need Him.  Rolls me on my tummy runs his hand petting my hair then down my back and over my butt I part my legs I cannot help it.  Hmmmm He murmurs noting my wanton need for His touch presence voice command.  If you want your legs open then let’s tie them open He says with derision.  He yanks one foot roughly to the corner of my bed and I feel rough rope around my ankle and then Him fastening it tight. For me I feel panic at this and say so I’m scared Daddy.  Leaving the one leg tied He comes by my face “it makes ME happy if you do this for ME little one.” He pets my hair I turn my head and see Him feel Him he kisses me barely and I die seeking more. I try to pull him to me He pins that arm behind my back. You are half mine now are you going to be good? It scares me daddy I don’t like it I panic, I whine. He lets me out but tells me to lay over his knee he’s sitting on chair. I feel ashamed and stupid. You are a disappointment Sarah, a failure, your panic is ridiculous and something must be done about it- he hits me hard!  I am disappointed in you he says as he hits me until I start crying.  The pain was shocking a terrible until it switched to very very good and I want him to say more things to me.  I am again very willing and needing him so much. He shoves me onto the bed while he stands up moving the chair out of his way. You need to spend some time worshipping me Sarah. He’s standing he’s wearing jeans with a belt, tells me to put his belt on the bed laying it out and to take him out. Get on your knees and do it what are you waiting for. He sprinkles rice on the ground to kneel on that he gets from his pocket. I unbuckle his belt take it out feel it smell it I want to be beaten with it. Lay it on the bed and undo his jeans the zipper pull them down - jeez Sarah what a klutz do I have to do everything myself? He takes off his pants. Stare right there as I show you what will be fucking your throat.  I feel silly again and he barks sit up straight, as I straighten I look away and he slaps my face hard “did I say you could look away from my cock?’” It stings I’m sorry I manage and he hits me again.  As I recover it sinks me back down Can I please suck you daddy?  I want to make you happy daddy I want to make you feel good daddy. Do it and you better do a good job he says. Since he’s made me feel a certain way I revere putting my mouth on him feeling around the head with my tongue snd licking down the sides putting my mouth on it and lowering down sucking feeling exploring..

 

 

 

2 years ago. January 6, 2022 at 1:48 AM

ugh, resisting going in… take me away!!

 

2 years ago. January 6, 2022 at 12:57 AM

one of my brothers bands, haven’t really talked to him since he discounted me on his Facebook pp. during pandemic.. but I’ll prolly be expected at his wedding next fall so maybe I’ll be expressing about him. Also fun to checkout his music and see my dad in him too

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 11:08 PM

The necklace by rose polenzani

These lyrics are so erotic and sensual 

 

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 8:55 PM

so this song with these artists rose cousins and royal wood is just so beautiful, I’d have loved to be in that room

And this song is Rose Polenzani, she’s a great poet I like use of language and I feel her soft.  I got to serve her coffee once in a bookstore/coffeehouse I was starstruck, I felt I failed at being cool 

https://open.spotify.com/track/4bQwDuDrTFXWUkgcqrC5Be?si=TTJCGxi9SdmgOcV3sS7M-Q&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A42r1OjF2VT8AKUZEU5Deo8

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 8:19 PM

Hang me out now, out to dry in the summer air blowing me around 

I can’t be with another, at least I know that now, solidly and from my gut.  I’m open for connection though, my heart is open to the world. And of course my daddy and I still will have our heart to heart.  

Things are strong and then they’re gone. It’s okay.  I am not so bad as I thought. I’m not good either I just am. I feel.  The winter might be long but we have the farm which will save us.  Ah to hunker down in a warm cabin with a special someone and a veggie stew going on the stove.. and a fire!!  To walk trails in a beautiful forest with a true friend chatting or silent.  Possibility, the unknown.  All I know is I no longer blow in the wind, I have my heart to come back to always.  I forget that I don’t need a man to tell me I exist, I only need to turn inward and feel it.  I am there and surprise! so is a very very beautiful world.
 
What a lovely shower.  All I need is mint rosemary conditioner, my black yoga mat, and rain sounds.  

Here is Everything I Need by Melissa Ferrick, I saw her live years ago in an intimate setting it was pretty cool

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 2:10 PM

Any Rent fans? Love this song

 

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 1:20 PM

God

2 years ago. January 5, 2022 at 12:54 AM

Higher power Universe LOVE

Feelin these tunes my 15yo son blasted back to back in the car:)

 

love, love and more love to ourselves and to the world❤️❤️

2 years ago. January 4, 2022 at 10:04 PM

I’m okay here in my bed.  Oh boy when I’m not though I’m really not, but when I am, I am too so.. lol. What in the world is happening in the world?!  What is happening in me??  The true journey is the journey within but it is nice to have some social contact:)