Jack in the box

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Maybe I was wrong

4 years ago. August 6, 2020 at 11:52 AM

It is (was?) My belief, true love will always find a way. Time, distance, circumstances cannot stop it.

I wait, I watch . . . Always ready (often debatable. 😒) - she will find me. We will find each other. If it is meant to be. . . .

But what if the great voice in the sky, or in my head, or the universe says "I put her right in front of you! You didnt act!"

There is a religious parable that comes to mind - along these lines, but I shall digress on that.

(Insert opinion here _________)

I have had relationships that evolved into love, and I have experienced love at 1st sight. (Quite amazing, that). Perhaps I am delusional in my belief - But I have always felt I have a twin flame - Like I am missing my other half.

Do I wait in the hopes we will collide when the timing is right? Like two polar forces of gravity, inexplicably drawn to each other - or will my hope and waiting result in a lonely life of missed opportunities?

I have hurt and been hurt - I no longer have it in me to go down that wrong road again.

How does one know what they should do??

I suppose there is no universal answer . . . Hope.

Obviously, I have never found "the one", or I'd be with her . . .

There is something I know I must say -

And I know I will feel it when your tears fall.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

A change in destiny,

A simple shift in planetary alignment,

Right?

In the cold calm . . .

You know, I will always remember,

that final day.

The too slow turtle got taken away,

There was only so much I couldnt say.

Only too much to make you stay.

Now a soft gentle rain crosses my heart,

As I reach back in time to the very start.

I dont want to be here, so torn apart,

With scattered thoughts and fading art.

Queens and pawns and players we knew,

Framed the door we both went through.

I know you know I only saw you,

But the deck was stacked, and the cards we drew.

It took years of tears to ease the pain,

At times they fell, lost in the rain.

But somehow in all, theres a lesson to gain,

And the love we shared was not in vain..

I had to wait, to truly let you go.

"Its gonna hurt when it heals too."

Im sorry. ⚘

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Certain parts omitted -

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won

So I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
. . . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . .

You touched my heart you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you

I've kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer but when I wake
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
I'd be the father of your child
I'd spend a lifetime with you

I know your fears and you know mine
We've had our doubts . . . .
And I love you, I swear that's true

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
And I will bear my soul in time
. . . . . . .

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Sacha Skarbek / James Blunt

Satindragon{Not Lookin} - Jack, we do sometimes over look the orchid while searching for the rose. There is a woman out there searching for you. We often put our hearts on a shelf waiting to find that perfect match. Yet sometimes we need to give it to others and buy a bottle of super glue just in case they drop it.. She is out there my friend, but you may have to try that slipper on several feet to find her.

Dragon Hugs 💜

4 years ago

OraclePollon(sub female){NotYours} - The important thing is, you can't find her if you stop looking. So never stop. But also, you won't see her if you aren't yet the best version of yourself. So strive for that every day.

"I wish I had met you sooner, so I could have loved you longer" ~Unknown

4 years ago

MstrJ(dom male){~ENM~} - Thank you for expressing yourself. I am currently in a moment where things are phenomenal and have been improving in my own life, but the people are me are suffering. For one reason or another. They lost ones they love, or are struggling to be safe and need time to themselves. The question I have for myself is "Can or will I be enough?"

I can be exceptionally competitive and I've always viewed every aspect of life as a potential competition. So when I look at relationships it's challenging for me to not compare myself and say "Well that previous partner damn near did everything perfectly, how the hell can I possibly match that?" The thing is for whatever reason the relationship passed. It doesn't mean it wasn't right, or that the person doesn't still love them. But I struggle finding my own way to say I offer more than what he had to give. Because how can you say definitely "I offer more than X" Am I being disillusioned by myself? Can I possibly offer as much or more than him?

The thing is relationships arent meant to be competitions. Because in competitions one team wins and everyone else gets second place. If I continue to think of relationships as competitions I will never be "enough" for anyone. Because people have talent and ability in numerous ways and the way that I or you show it is unique to us.

We create these special dynamic relationships that mean everything to us because we made it special.

How do you find that right person? How do you know when she is the right one?

The thing is every single person has something that makes them special. It is about finding what's special inside of them and seeing how you resonate with their unique quirks. But even then you can still end up hurt and alone. It takes effort to remain diligent and consistent. Finding new ways to reignite that passion that burns between you everyday so that it never extinguishes. But that's never ending work, but when you find the right person it doesn't feel like work because you ultimately desire to put in that effort because she is special in all the ways you desire.

Hahaha no idea if this rant was helpful, but I hope you are able to find what it is you are searching for.

4 years ago

Bunnie - Hope... the ultimate dangling carrot. Everything rises and falls with that word.
I hope you find her... and I hope it’s the right timing. I’m always cheering for you :)

4 years ago

Jack in the box -
*from the past

Thank you Ms Bunnie. ⚘

3 years ago

Grey Eyes(sub female){Owned} - It will be the one least expected Jack. She is coming.

4 years ago

Sir Don(dom male){Nt looking} - Jack she is looking for you as well

4 years ago

Jack in the box -

Thank you all ⚘

4 years ago

Lilkitten(sub female){Deepwater} - I believe when the time is right for both of you it will happen and it will be when you least expect it and most likely, not someone you expected. But when you leave your heart open, the possibilities have no limits. She's out there ... waiting for you too. 🌹

4 years ago

Mama Bear JJ(dom female){koa} - If there is anything I’ve learned, it is that we grow and evolve. We can’t help it, it is what it is. Because of that, the “right” person in our life may change. That doesn’t mean they were actually “wrong” or that we failed. Don’t give up hope. You will know when someone is “right” as surely as you will know when they no longer are. There may be one if you are lucky, but there may be many as well, and that’s okay. So says the little monkey, so it must be true ... she’s pretty smart 🙈🙉🙊

4 years ago

slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ } - For the love of God I was BETTER until that. Excuse me while I ho cry my soul out into my pillow for a while.

4 years ago

Literate Lycan(dom male) - I do believe in true love. And I believe in the Ying and Yang, the eternal Phoenix and Dragon. The twin flame. I’ve been chewed up but I know it exists and I won’t give up. I just need to make sure I’m ready to receive it fully when it comes. And maybe it already has I just need to make myself more open and completely available. That’s my task!

4 years ago

slaveMikayla(sub female){MstrJ } - Well said.

4 years ago

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