Master and the Sub

So as of last Sunday it's been 41 years since the death of my brother, hard to believe it's been so long ago. My beautiful Hazel was only 5 months old when it happened, I was 12. I remember saying goodbye to him as I left for school and he was going to a wedding for his girlfriends brother, that evening he was gone. Now me and my brother never were close as most kids are until you get older and realize that your both not the ass the other thinks you are. We were starting to get to that point when he and his girlfriend left this place, I never told him I loved him and I refused to say goodbye to anyone after that, always said see you later. This time of year is always hard on my mother, it was hard on her the night I shot myself, later we were talking and she said if something ever happens to you I would kill myself. I couldn't believe she said that, I know I'm the last of her 2 kids but what about my father, her grandkids, great grandchildren are those not reasons to live. My beautiful lioness said something similar one day if something happens to you I don't want to live, I asked why, because you are the love of my life, I couldn't live without you. Ok, I understand that, I love her more than anything but and yes I said but I can't imagine her wanting to die because of me. She is young, beautiful, healthy, intelligent, funny, wicked sense of humor, sexy, list goes on, she has her family and mine that love her more than anything, good reasons to live. Death is hard, not for those that died but for those who loved them and are still here, the sadness, loneliness, heartache, questions of why. I know death all to well, been going to funerals since I was young enough to remember, they buried my grandfather on my ten birthday, I came as close to death as possible without dying the night I shot myself. Buried family and friends some after living a long life, others not given the chance to live life, one thing I've learned over the years death doesn't discriminate and nobody knows when it comes. My perspective of death has been changed over time I got to a point where it didn't bother me, I know it sounds cold but after countless funerals you kinda block out feeling so as to protect yourself from the sadness it can be quite devastating. After my gunshot I have a new outlook on life, I'm not afraid of death but I don't want it anytime soon, now that I found my soulmate I am trying to live a good safe life so as to be around for a long time, not for me but for her, as I want her around for just as long. I would be devastated if something happens to her, because for once in my life I'm more concerned with how much I would hurt the ones who love me over it doesn't matter if I die no one will care. My brother is not with me, but the memories of him will comfort me for all my life. My deepest condolences for all those who have lost someone they loved, my heart aches with you. To all, life is wonderful and short, enjoy family, friends, and the ones you love, make lots of memories so they will always be with you as you walk through life. Love to all. ??

I would like to start off with absolutely beautiful ladies. When me and Hazel eyes first started talking I got limited pictures, by that I mean head shots, my pictures of me are on my profile I have nothing to hide as I say it's just me. As we talked for hours on end I got the impression that she wasn't self confident enough to show me a full body pick, pg folks I'm not a pervert. As the days turned to weeks I got snippets of in my opinion a beautiful ass in cute underwear, but not enough to see the whole her. I could tell by now she had some self body issues and it stemmed from a previous relationship, even though she was a healthy woman for her height and weight, she was a runner also and if she gained any weight she was ridicule for it. One day we were kinda having a spat, I was trying to push her away because I didn't feel I was good enough for her, conversation turned she didn't feel good enough for me. So in this heated conversation I asked her to send me a picture of her naked and let me decide if I would be happy or disappointed with her, she reluctantly did crying the whole time. I open the text to see the most beautiful person ever, she was not 5 ft 2 eyes of blue as they say is the perfect woman, she had flaws, scars, curves, and most importantly shape. I said to her over the phone a thousand miles away you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen, I didn't fall in love with her body, I feel in love with her mind, heart, and soul because they were so beautiful that her body was an added bonus to go along with this special person. From day one body site unseen until her visit last July when I saw every inch of this amazing woman for me she is my Greek Goddess. Ladies and gentlemen, find the person that sees beyond whats on the outside, because it's what's on the inside that truly matters. My father and I have this saying they may be beautiful on the outside but when they open their mouths the true ugliness comes out. So I say, love your shape, flaws, scars, imperfections they are what makes you intriguing, unique, and beautiful. Big hug to everyone, love yourself and love life.???

My life with my beautiful lioness couldn't be better, BUT there are the times I question who is playing what role in this dynamic. As in my last blog she is a master ninja at coming in the bathroom standing over the shower with a can of shaving cream in her hand I never hear a thing until I look up to see her smiling and scaring the piss out of me, good thing I'm in the shower. So last month I was looking at buying a pair of hair clippers so as to cut my hair, I keep it short anyways so doing it myself seems logical in these trying times. She orders me one on April 14th they were shipped on the 18th, supposed to be here by the 24th or may first, needless to say by May 4th no clippers. So about a week ago she says I'll cut your hair, which I replied do you know how, no she says but I cut my brothers hair once. Now let me say I haven't let anyone but a professional cut my hair since the time my brother and I cut each other's hair resulting in mom taking us to the barbershop and having it all removed. So this week I decided to let her cut my hair, she got out the scissors, I sat down and watched as my hair hit the floor. I will say this she did an excellent job for someone who hasn't been to beauty school, tonight I dyed it blonde and all is well. I have learned that in most relationships that it helps to swith roles when the situation dictates, for either side always being either dominant or submissive can be overwhelming when it comes to a circumstance that your not accustomed to. Love having someone like her that I can trust to take care of me. Here's to the home haircuts stay safe everyone, and big hug. Lions mane is shorter and blonde.

So the line up for Saturday was supposed to be get 2 new tires for her jeep,  go for a bike ride ( think her crotch rocket and my saddle bagged 1300 Honda). Walk out of the garage, she says did you do that and points in her jeep, everything in the console was all over the front seat, front passenger door was open. Nope not me, I stupidly forgot to lock it after going to the store. This was upsetting because in the almost 30 years I have lived here this has never happened or anything close, it a good neighborhood. Well she doesn't keep anything of value in it so there was nothing taken, found out that they went through a truck a block away also, will be making sure I don't forget again. Got to the tire store just to find out they didn't have the tires in stock so a return trip this week will hopefully get better results. Next stop home depot for new blinds, talk about more people than I've seen in a long time, guess the best way to stay at home is to work on something so you don't kill your significant other ?. Nursery next, picked up flowers, herb plants, Walmart for potting soil and gas tank for the grill. Dollar general got some containers for the flowers. Back at home, my lioness is like my mother, headstrong and determined to do it all, she planted all the flowers we bought, rearranged 2 flower beds, planted the herbs. All I did was order a pizza and water everything after she was done. After dinner, installed new blinds for the patio door, don't want the neighbors seeing something that might excite or scare them. Then off for the bike ride, it was a beautiful night to go out with my beautiful lioness. I truly did find my soulmate, she takes care of me in a way no one else ever tried and for her i am grateful. Now today she promised we can rest, I'll wait and see. Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend, big air hug to all. ?❤

As a child growing up I was always told to be thankful for what I have my mother said this to me quite often. I didn't know until I got older that she had grew up dirt poor and suffered abuse. Now my family wasn't that poor but we didn't have a lot, mom bought most of my brothers and my clothes at goodwill or some 5 and dime stores, we moved a lot on count of my father getting laid off or him trying to find a better job. There were times us kids were sent to stay with either family or friends because my parents couldn't afford food, I remember us staying at my father's friend house for awhile until he got a job. It wasn't until I was around 9 or 10 that my father got a really good union job, he gave me and my brother 20 dollars from his first paycheck that was a lot of money back then. My parents bought there first home in 1978, in May of 79 they buried their first child not much to be thankful for. At age 13 started hanging out with my brothers friend he was 16, mom was kinda in her own world with some health issues and dad was always gone for work. I started smoking, drinking, I was driving a car at 13, stayed out until 5am most nights, as long as I wasn't getting into trouble it was all good, oh I was thankful for the freedom. I was 18 when I married my first wife, we fought a lot just as 2 naive kids would it wasn't until my first child was born that I grew up and I was thankful for my first kid. Bought my first house when I was 29 I had moved 31 times in my life never went to the same elementary school more than 2 years I was thankful for having a good job and 3 kids by then. 22 years of marriage and it ended, kids were older, we were not the same and her mid life crisis was to find someone younger than me again not much to be thankful for, so I thought, I have 3 beautiful children and 2 grandchildren so I am thankful. Remarried in 2016, I was thankful that someone actually wanted me, after the gunshot I had issues physically and emotionally I also didn't think anyone would ever want me. This lasted 2 years and I was thankful it ended, we were to different to ever be happy, her ideas just clashed with how I wanted to live my life. Joined the cage last year next month, honestly I truly didn't think I would ever find someone, but I enjoyed the hunt, loved the conversation with others, which some I have the privilege to call friends. Then she came along, younger than me, a thousand miles away, what is there to be thankful for, a fantasy, just wishful thinking. It was that first conversation June 2nd that made me thankful I got to know her, 16 hours and I couldn't believe how much we had in common. Come October it will be our 1 year wedding anniversary hard to believe. So as I write this blog, I remember back on my own life, a life filled with doing without, abuse from strangers, death of loved ones, my death almost, relationships that didn't last, all the bad things. But I also have to look at all the things I'm thankful for, my parents who love me without judgement, my children and grandchildren, the experiences I've had, things I've seen and live to tell about, loves I've had and lost so I could learn from them, people I've met and the ones I call friends, all the good and all the bad who made me the person I'm proud to be. To my beautiful lioness, I truly hope you know how thankful I am that you graced my life with your presence, your essence, your beautiful soul, and humorous wit, for that I will always be thankful. 

Don't know when it was invented, all through old movies you saw a rough old cowboy using a brush to lather up his face and shave with a straight razor. Sorry ladies they never showed a woman lather up her parts to shave, damn shame could have learned how much you all suffer in the name of hygiene. My problem is my beautiful sub thinks the stuff was made for torturing me, got me in the bathroom one night while trying to shave, right down the back of my underwear and then patted my ass to make sure it was good and lodged up my ass. Second assault was standing over me while I was taking a shower, washing my hair I thought my shampoo smells different, low and behold she is standing over me giving me the half of can treatment. Now I am paranoid every time I take a shower, she's like a ninja waiting for her chance to get me. Now funny part is if I try to get even then, she uses the puppy dog tears to exclaim I just washed my hair, or please don't. How am I supposed to deal with this behavior, I got a brat and It's not what I am used to. I have figured out that revenge is best when she will have no clue, I will watch my back, but at the same time plot my sweet revenge, oh and for the doms who thinks cropping her ass will be justified well she enjoys that way to much. As for now I wait, this Lion will patiently wait for the right moment to have my satisfaction. Oh and she bought 4 cans of the stuff, claiming there was going to be a shortage, my ass. Hope everyone is doing well, staying safe and playing as much as possible. Love from Lion and his Brat Hazel Eyes.

Noun: a humorous or malicious deception

Verb:  Deceive with a hoax.

My state has joined a few other states in protesting our stay at home rule, ours was to end April 24th but now has been extended to May 3rd, local area it's May 15th. The other night while watching the news, same old story just the numbers are increasing I see their coverage of the protesters and they talk to a woman shouting it's all a hoax brought about by government or someone taking away her rights. Another woman was screaming about her right to go to the beauty parlor and showed everyone who tuned in her grey roots while these people clearly were not practicing social distancing. My first thought was how I wanted to confront the first woman and ask her if all of the dead across the world was just a hoax, what kind of mentality do you have that there is no empathy for a human life. My thought on the second woman was pity, if you can't color your own hair that is sad considering I'm a guy and I bleach and color my own hair, too expensive for a professional. But as I watch the news every night and see more and more people joining on the band wagon it makes me sad that we have become so devided in this country, what happened to we our the people, one nation standing together. I saw a woman who said she didn't want the state government to tell her what to do but she was protesting because the president told them to, wow isn't that an oxymoron. I don't care what politcal side you stand for but shouldn't the good of the people come first, I totally understand people our suffering financially right now, but if you rush to open the country and this hits us like Italy or Spain then where do we go next? How big an impact financially would there be when everything shuts down, no grocery stores, no fast food, no nothing but hospitals running and as we have seen lack of medical supplies, doctors and nurses stretched to their limits. Yes, I understand as some say but it isn't that bad here or it's dropping off, but all it takes is that one person and it starts all over. Remember when you had the flu as a kid and you couldn't go back to school until 48 hours had past that you didn't have a fever. How many people do you think will follow that rule considering I went out today to get gas for the lawnmower, 90 percent of the people I saw weren't wearing a mask and the 6 foot rule doesn't apply. I see nothing humorous about people dying, I don't think mother nature or a virus cares about deception it's just following it's programming. Maybe we should build a wall around one particular area of this country let everyone that thinks it's a hoax or feels their rights are being taken away and let them live in this area, they can have grocery stores, hair salons, bowling alleys, tatoo shops, gun stores, whatever they want. Meanwhile the rest of us can stay at home to protect the lives of people who we either now or just have empathy for as humans. Because I don't want to live in a world where we as humans start treating people like just a number, we all have names, lives and stories to tell. Be safe my beautiful friends, big hug from Lion and Hazel. 

It totally amazes me how this lifestyle has been judged by others but someone takes the time to judge me on here. Do you know me, do you have any idea what my life has been through, have you seen the scars that adorn my body like a story of bad things. Nope you sit behind your computer in the safety of your home and pass Judgement on others . Why we may never know, were you abused as a child like many here, did you have your heart broken by someone you trusted as many here, are you jealous of what others have and you desire that you must spew your vile feelings onto others. What makes you the expert on relationships I don't remember reading your book or seeing you lecture on the subject of how to have the perfect relationship, maybe you are just as they say an internet troll. It's sad that your only 34 and you seem to think you have all the answers, reminds me of my kids there your age, right up until the point they fall down and I'm there to pick them up because my children mean the world to me. Did you not have love as a child, were you left to raise yourself ( latchkey kid) who honestly knows because you refuse to take the time to get to know someone before you pass Judgement. It's sad that you judge me and you don't know me, speaks volumes about why you are single. Judge yet not lest ye be judged wise words maybe you should learn. The one thing you don't seem to understand about me is I've been through your bullshit all my life, if you would have gotten to know me then you would know people like you are insignificant you don't pay my bills, you have zero control over my life and my life is wonderful. As I say I'm an adult I'll make my own decisions not you. On a lasting note learn how to properly use the English language your criptic way of communicating make you look un educated. I hope you find what you're looking for in this world, I hope only the best for you, because life is hard enough without people turning on each other. Hate only works if you let it,  if you truly want to know me message me we can have a nice chat about many topics I'm old enough to see things you never will and I hope you never do on some things. 

As I walk through life with my beautiful lioness by my side it's amazing how time just slips away. This same time last year I was embroiled in a court battle with my first ex wife over my house, I got it in the divorce but she wouldn't sign the papers so the reason I was in the process of divorcing my second wife. You see a person's true self when things don't go the way they want, second wife blamed me because my first wife was a bitch and it was an inconvenience she had to deal with. Got called a lollygager, I had to laugh because it's not a word I would ever associate with someone who is hyper and it definitely doesn't describe me. Now by April 24th of last year I had got my house back in my name only, remove the woman who claimed she cared and went back to being single again, also added a new 15 year mortgage to a house I only had a few years left to pay on, love can be brutal. Now may rolls around and I'm looking at local sites and seeing that most of them are not what I'm looking for, my oldest child recommends fet life, my opinion craigslist of the lifestyle not what I'm looking for. One day I see a ad for the Cage and decided to check it out, first plus I don't have to sign up just to see if I like it, second was it seemed to offer what I was looking for a partner for life not just a one time thing or short term. So I join, start browsing profiles, create my own, start talking with people, find friends, even though I knew most I talked with it wouldn't work or we didn't match in what we were looking for it was nice making a friend and discussing life, someone to bitch about the daily grind, or maybe a problem with. I wrote some blogs about my past submissive, some about my life, some of my opinion or just life in general, I enjoy writing it gives me a way to release the turbulence of thoughts always running thru my mind. So one evening while on this site I get a message from my lioness, I had seen and read her profile and as I told her I thought she sounded angry and I thought she was too young for me. We sent messages at first, then step up to pm's on the site, she said I could call her if i wanted and gave me her number. That was a phone call I will never forget, my nickname was jabber jaws as a child, I like to talk part of being hyper but that particular night we talked for 16 hours. The talks got more frequent then daily, my family got a well deserved break from me for awhile, we finally decided on her coming for a visit in July of last year, after that I flew to Maryland and we drove back. Last October we got married, something that I swore I would never do again but she is my beautiful soulmate I can't imagine my life without her. She woke up a little bit ago while I was writing this, had a bad dream and her leg was bothering her. I comforted her best I could, tucked her back into bed with her stuffy and hope she sleeps without any interruptions. It's just shy of one year we met and come October it will be our 1 year wedding anniversary, it all seems unreal she makes me so happy, she takes care of me even though my mindset is I can take care of myself it's my job to take care of her. So as I started this blog time is magical in if you're happy, things are going well it flys by as they say but if you're unhappy of life is beating you down it seams to drag by so ever slowly. My advice, find what makes you happy, content and fulfilled time will race by, don't let things drag time like and anchor stuck in the mud. To everyone best wishes, big air hug for now, lots of love. Lion and his beautiful Hazel. 

As we enter into another week passing of mother nature grounding us for our sins against her, I want to exspress a concern. While most of the country is in a state wide stay at home rule, other states are not but may soon be. We all have noticed life as we knew it changed quite drastically, ordered to stay at home only leave to get essentials, keep a 6 foot distance between us, the streets, roads, and interstates have become less traveled. Now for most of us this sounds wonderful, can drive like normal, not stuck behind ( oh for heavens sake move slow poke, put the phone down and drive dumbass, wow did they not put turn signals on that car) you get the idea. My concern is it seems that you have to be a little more careful now,  my beautiful lioness is still working and coming home to tell me about the terrible ways people are driving, running red lights, pulling out it front of her so she has to slam on the breaks, when riding her bike had someone just start moving over without looking. I also while out running an errand on my bike had a guy come into my lane headed straight at me, 4 lanes no others cars around, saw a person looking at their phone driving down the street, oh and all speed limits have been temporarily removed. So my warning to all is please be extra cautious when going out, as they say look both ways and look again, take a little more time to get where you're going rather than be in a rush and maybe miss the asshole going through the red light. This virus is bad enough, getting in a car wreck would not be enjoyable. Stay safe everyone big air hug from lion and Hazel.