In a conversation with a dear friend of mine he used the term old guard in this lifestyle, now my mind went to an image of an old white guy sitting in a chair with a finely tailored suit, a glass of expensive bourbon in his right hand, and a tightly wrapped cuban burning in between his fingers grasped in his left hand, with a beautiful young naked girl at his feet and him with a wry smile knowing what wealth and power could get you. He replied it was when you served as a submissive before coming a dominate, not at all what I was thinking, I ask if he had been trained this way and he replied no. So after a few days of pondering my thoughts I can say I was born a submissive, now unless your born with a attitude of an evil fucking person or on the day you had your first thought after soiling your diaper I am a dominate, I think we are all born a submissive and at some point in life decide to become either a dominate or submissive via our own decision or life experiences. As a child I was always told children are to be seen not heard, many relatives told me to sit down and shut up, one baby sitter used to lock me in a room until lunch then I made the mistake one day of putting my elbow on the table and getting the back of her hand across my face knocking me to the floor, think she might have been a sadist, needless to say I didn't get lunch and back to the room for not having proper manners. Years later I had my ass beat by a lady we were staying with at the time with a razor strap, blood running down both legs because I got caught playing hide and seek with my brother when we should have been in bed. Countless school bullies would keep me a submissive, as I got older bosses would because of the threat of losing my job, an ex wife because I didn't and still don't enjoy confrontation and the children were involved. I have always known I was a master, I always wanted to be in charge and took charge in my jobs when I could, was told I would make good boss because I was fair but stern. I'm a Leo so for me it's always meant being strong and fight back which I've had to do most of my life, being submissive when the occasion demanded but deep down always knowing who I truly was. Today I still don't enjoy confrontation but I will fight you if I believe I'm right and I stand my ground if I truly believe in my cause. So I say this if you have compassion, empathy, love for all things good and wonderful, can bring yourself to see how others feel, wisdom from a lifetime of pain and servitude, knowledge from what life has taught you then you might make a good master. I wish everyone a wonderful day, big hug but I'm headed off to be a lioness tamer. Until next blog I bid you all a fair well. Lion
