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I woke the first time and looked over to see his face, and realized that for the first time in my life at 42 I felt like I was free and light of hart and soul. What I found last night was nothing short of a miracle a man of exceeding beauty and love I wonder what I did to feel this. I am both empty and full at the same time. All I remember is looking in his eyes and telling him everything all my hopes and fears all the things I kept hidden even from myself. he just sat there and listened and acknowledged me as a person not just a woman. He led and I just followed. I am in a hotel in N.Y city but not like any hotel I was  ever taken too its  the top floor out the front is a small park out the back is a courtyard hothouse I can just make out flowers of different colors and types.

the bathroom is every woman's dream walk-in tub two sinks and good help me a bidet. there was a new toothbrush some very good soap and body wash shampoo, I shower and walk out and sitting at a small desk is a woman who can only be described as unearthly beautiful. her name is Dena, she say's and she is Jim's assistant and she has his instructions to take me shopping for my new wardrobe and to help me adjust to my new standing in life. But first she  took the liberty of ordering breakfast for me. At that point I remembered what he asked me last night, Will you consent to be owned by me. and me saying yes. and I don't even know what kind of lover he is. she said we have plenty of time he just  went back to bed a little while ago. After eating and dressing off we went and Dena and I got into some serious girl talk.

It turns out that she has been in love with him from from the day he bought her father's company and took her as his assistant, and if I break his hart she will kill me. she  has called my babysitter and arranged for her to come and care for my daughter for the weekend when i said whats that going to cost me she informed me that he has already taken care of it. I don't even remember telling him I had a child or giving him my  babysitters number but  then I don't remember giving him my life story but I guess I did. the rest of the day was spent shopping for us. everything a girl needs from foundation out when i asked Dena what this was  coasting she simply smiled and said you will never know from her. Along the way I figured out why he never took her she was just too good at what she did and he was afraid of losing her abilities as an assistant if things did not work out she was just that good.

the last stop was for an evening gown she told me that he had an engagement that night that he could not postpone or ignore so off to the spa we went hair nails waxing and make-up before finally going back to the hotel to start my new life it was six p.m. and sir was dressed it was the first time I saw him in a tux and I felt the breath catch in my thought to me he was just that manly. Dena and I went in to change it was the first time I saw her body and it was perfect I could not help myself I kissed her and there was fire in her eyes. We dressed and off we went, we three walked in it was a charity event and sir took turns dancing with us why did it feel so right is this what love is? can a person love like this more then one at the same time? can a hart hold this much in it? I guess like a stool you need three legs to stand.                        

                                                                   preface

Hi, my name is Mari, I am the youngest of sir's sub's. First I should tell you why we are writing this it's for the children to read when they are old enough to understand what and who there father was, and the woman who helped him become what he was. So feed  back from you will become very important to us. Until recently we did not know that sir kept his own diary on computer. Because of this we can now read both Jane's and sir James account of there live's both before and after they met neither held back there feeling's and fears nor did the hold back on the sometimes painful or dought's he might have had before making the chooses he made. And you will learn about Jane a woman so filled with love and drive that she could not fail. Her desires of the flesh scared many away the and control that sir gave her in life and direction to channel her passion into becoming a business woman that could not fail.

excerpt from Jane's diary five months before meeting sir "cock and pussy is so easy to find now it is almost laughable, so why can't I find the one for me".

excerpt from James diary about the same time Pussy and cock suckers abound but none that when I look down on that don't have dollar signs in there eyes".

As you can see we have two people of like minds before they ever met. now on to the night they met.

Jane's point of view of that night, why is he standing alone his pant's fit like they were painted on good muscle on the leg's and a perfect ass and shoulders. but short like a jockey he must be ugly as hell or he would already have a couple of ladies all over him. oh my god hes turned around while I was looking at his ass. and he's looking at my face, has he already checked out my body he's coming towards me. this is definitely not a man you want to anger not pretty-boy faced but definitely not ugly rugged but young for me. then I looked in his eyes.

James point of view of that night, someone is watching me I can feel it, but who, when i finally turn around I see a little red headed pixie of a women dressed in black as she looks up and realizes that I found her checking out the package she look's me in the face without embarrassment good girl be a woman of strength now let us see weather this is the face that will haunt your dreams or you will see every morning over coffee for the rest of your life. as I walk over to her she makes the error of looking in my eyes and I know she is  mine careful little girl don't look to deep you may not like what you see.             

After much talk between us, we have decided to change the nick name for the account. With sir with his first loves we have decided that we should tell you of his first loves and his road to becoming who he was. As well as the influence of his first loves. we will be writing this because even though there part is finished the love they created is now a life of it's own but it is important to tell the beginning. so sit back and hopefully enjoy what we have come to call the book of Jane and James.    

Wolf howled loud and filled with pain. We found sir in his study in front of the fire a small smile on his face. wolf's head on his lap whimpering like a puppy.

According to his wishes his ashes were mixed with Jane Dena and Ann's the bone fire was lit the ceremony of remembrance was performed and all of them were placed at the four corners of the ranch to protect and word us from evil. 

He is with his first loves and protecting his last loves.

we are now the lost girls.   

                                   I know at times you feel just a little lost but remember I am always there and guiding the way forward for us. 

        This is an analogy think of your brains as an individual orchestra like all they have a unique sound because of the way they are balanced, some have more wind some have more strings others have more percussion and some have more brass. It is my job to make you practice each piece until you have it perfect.

        Now think of your bodies as a instrument, it is my job to help you tune yourself so that it harmonies with all the other instruments in your orchestra this causes mind and body to work together in sink. 

       Finally, I bring all of you together in one grand coral to perform in one grand symphony and the music transforms you into a sound that can not be duplicated by any other single orchestra on the planet you become unique that perfect sound that resonates to all that hear. it  captures them and transforms them or more likely makes them stare in awe of what we have done together. 

                                                                thank you ladies for allowing me to teach and mold you in to something inspiring 

                                                                                                                      with love and gratitude

                                                                                                                                  Sir. James          

thanks to my current sub's they suggest that this year I open up to others who never knew her. we lost Jane and Ann on new years night 2 years ago to a driver who fell asleep behind the wheel. and since we light a bonfire to celebrate there lives they think they would like to open it to others. leave a wish, gripe you want to let go of, resolution for the new year, or just the gift of love for the world. 

each comment will be printed and cut to feed the fire I is my hope to have many to add to this years fire. 

she came on a cold winters night.

she brought life.

she brought love.

she brought purpose. 

she wandered looking 

not knowing the purpose

till she saw him

and it was clear

she was to take his pain

he was to show her why

she was born with wings

he taught her to fly

thus her love was shared

her purpose was spread

and on another winters night

she left him to carry on.

       Now for the important lessons how to live with two post liberation ladies. lucky for me their truth was work liberation not home. even-though I did the cooking in the home (because I love to cook) but they like good girls cleaned up after me, thus i learned the proper use of a sub in the home. we had a maid/nanny because we worked and chose to spend our off time with each other and Jane's daughter. what I learned about these modern women was in order for them to be truly happy at home they must feel fulfilled at work. that is a must and set me on the course for a life of success. you see Dena had  a degree in business management Jane had a degree in marketing and real experience in women's clothing and a good reputation in the field what she did not have was the dick and balls to break the glass wall solution start her own business, so with my money and her work that is what she did.Dena wrote the business plan's and managed my office and off we went. I wish Dena could have been there to see her ideas grow. to this day I use her business model. 

      the modern Dom's job is and always will be responsibility for the care of his sub's. this means to me and mine boss at home and chef adviser at work. They gave me so many lessons in life and responsibility that in truth I can't list them all. But without a doubt the biggest lesson they to gave me was how to accept love. and that love except for the lucky few who go together there will always be pain at  the end but that the time together is what is important to love each day with it because it does end but the memory of it will keep you going after.                

      There is a difference between kink and the lifestyle, kink is what you do, lifestyle is who or what you are. these two taught me the difference they  showed me that I was a Dom and to accept my pleasure as was my due and even more important my responsibility to those I care for. under my mentor I learned all the mechanics of the life and even learned the practice of whip and rope or restraint all the safety all the toys. but they taught me the meaning for them and that each tool held a meaning for them and when each was needed or witch to withhold. you see even when playing they were not my playthings they were my partners in the act of love. they showed me the true meaning to something my mentor tried to teach me. you see he gave me a gold coin he had made when he felt he had shown me every thing he could on one side was the word pleasure and the other side was the word pain he said there will be times when you flip the coin it will land  on one side or the other but on rare times it will land in the up-right stand on edge at that time when that happens pleasure and pain are the same. 

      They proved to me that any sub has three levels of sub space, the first level can be and is the same as vanilla people achieve when they have sex. this what I call the oh god that's it fuck me stage.or the pleasure side of the coin. the second level can be reached when the nerves accept pain as a pleasure signal where with every slap or crack of the whip elicits a moan or shake until they reach orgasm this is the pain side of the coin. the third is the hardest to achieve and frankly the most dangerous for the sub because you can kill with a kiss at this point the sub's body can no longer tell pleasure from pain it feel the sting of the whip the same as a kiss to the cheek the hart is beating so fast and hard that that it skips beats and your sub is in one continual orgasm there are some warning signs before the danger point is reached incoherent speech, blindness you must stop at this point and let them calm down you can not touch them until they have. they thought me to bring them to this point regularly when there was  time for them to relax the next day and be catered to because believe me it will take a long time to get back there wits and then care for you and your needs.

it was only after this that i researched and found that the pain and pleasure nerves are so closely bundled together that they will actually connect and transmit at the same time and this is what causes the brain to confuse its  signal to the rest of the body.

so you know  i had them hooked to a E.K.G. to make sure there was no damage done on a permanent level.                

      I was young 36 comfortable and in the lifestyle since the age of 18 as a Dom. at 13 I became a sub to a neighbor lady who had a thing for kids. at eighteen I left her tied to the bed for her husband to find.joined the army and when I returned sought  and found a master and became his apprentice.I learned a great deal from him on how to treat a lady and how this lifestyle fit in with everyday life.

       One day in July I stopped at a bar that was having a social it was filled with men and women looking to meet-up. I was standing at a rail separating the dance floor from the bar area and felt myself assaulted by a a pair of eyes from behind at the time I was very muscular from the work I was doing you see when I left the army I had two skills how to kill at long range and building things now you can make money at both but I took the  safe one even thought it paid less. I bought and fixed houses to resell by this time I was doing quit well for myself and had several people working for me and employing several other companies and their people.when i turned around I could see her right away 5' 2" red hair black dress work attire instead of being embarrassed she lingered on my package the slowly looked up to my eyes. and smiled but behind  that smile was a look of fear and uncertainty and I had her or she had me depending on how you look at it. I walked up to her and said lets go somewhere quieter and talk about your life and future.

      Over the next several hours I learned much about her life and found this women intriguing and so a life time of love and lust was started that night it lasted 23 years until her sudden death 2 years ago come January first when she was taken from me in a car accident but even in this she had planed for my happiness. this was a lesson in itself a great sub always makes sure her Dom is first the same as a Dom makes sure their sub is provided for, in this time I learned that to be a good Dom you put your needs behind that of your sub. now on the face of that statement It sounds as though the rolls are reversed but I came to realize that the opposite is true. you see if your sub is happy you will be happy because she will work twice as hard to show you what you mean to her. from the beginning she saw that i was not a one women kind of guy and lucky for us and I say us because she was very happy with the other woman as well as me. you see Dena was my assistant for the past 3 years and unknown to me in love with me. we were very happy for three years until my bought of insanity you see Dena was killed by drunk driver along with our unborn child right in front of me. I do not handle loss well I have been told as to this day I do not remember exactly what happened I was told it took 5 men to pull me off him now i was as strong as I could be but lets be honest I'm 5'5" how strong can you be. I came back to myself two months later in the nuthouse it was proven that at the time I was  mentally incapacitated.at the time of the attack and was released. 

next I will list the things I learned from each of them