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My journey is a road I travel most of the time with friends by my side. Some days I walk alone, others I hold someone's hand. This is my journey on cage. If you really want to know about me go back 2 years ago to my first blog. Enjoy
5 years ago. August 8, 2019 at 6:28 AM

People come and go, each with a lesson to learn. What are you willing to take from each interaction? I am guilty of thinking people are expendable that they will always be there. 

The past few days I have been watching one of my patients I am close to slowly loose their fight. I realize everytime one moves on that there is so much more I have to give.  So my question is do you do the most for the people around you or do you accuse and assume they are not giving you their all. 

Bunnie - I’ve never thought to consider how much someone is giving me. I guess I’ve always just assumed it’s as much as they’re capable of at the time.
5 years ago
Pheonix J​(sub female) - I watch families not come around and see their loved one because they are so busy I assume then when the patient dies they accuse... you didnt spend time with them you didnt call you didnt... when in all actuality none of them did. So dont ever assume someone else isnt doing something because chances are we are not as well..

Such a sad job I do but someone has to do it and I will he my patients family when theirs choose not to.
5 years ago
Shiro​(sub female) - Honestly I do both. I really always think no one likes me, even family members (trust me, I don't like some of their views either), but regardless of that, I'm always a pacifist trying to add anything to a situation to make it more comfortable for myself and everyone...including being passive and having an internal dialogue of secret frustration.

There is a line though. Spending all the gas in your tank on people who do not turn around and likewise fill you back up are going to get hard to dedicate time to, or in time kill that service oriented spirit. It's much like exercising your internal logic and deciding who to submit to. You wouldn't submit to a dominant who wasn't dominating you (or you shouldn't), just as you shouldn't hand your soul over to narcissistic people.

Hopefully I understood your post correctly and this comment isn't complete nonsense. There are many perspectives at play in the question. :)

Sorry to hear about your client. I hope you can have some peace in the days ahead. <3
5 years ago
ulfhednar - In regaurds to just people one you can't save everyone two some are simply not worth saving you will only waste time effort energy and resources on these burlesque thespian types and only be left disapointed frustrated and alone in the end and yes ive met a few took them in so no i do not speak from books ir pure here say and conjecture but personal expirence but the ones worth saving your heart and soul will lead you to them wether you seek them out or not it will happen all it takes is time :)
5 years ago
Give you Some Rope​(dom male){not lookin} - I sat with a work friend in a coma 8? Times for about 10 weeks while he was in a coma. By week 2 everyone's at work asked me for the updates, including his boss. By week 4 the nurses in ICU started giving me updates (skirting the edges of HIPAA laws). I asked them why they were updating me, he said, "Noone else comes to visit him"

His wife was only there for about 10 minutes his first day in ICU. After he came out of the coma he told me I was his best friend - he was mostly just a commute buddy to me.

You never know.
4 years ago

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