7 years ago. Tuesday, January 8, 2019 at 9:45 PM
Bottling up all feelings to hide how I really feel
Ruminating about the hidden agendas
Owning how I really feel is harder than you think
Killing off a part of my soul for the sake of not being left alone
Eventually just wanting to leave this life
Never leaving because I'll never be loved again
Trying so hard to believe you're sincere
Ruining any chance I have at self-worth
Used by the person I love the most
Slowly falling deeper into depression -
Tightly holding on to whatever shred of love may be left.