Things in this life cause us to take a good look into our now. People come into our lives at the right moment and open our eyes to things we kept in the corner. When 2 planners get together it can be an amazing thing. Then one will plan and search ahead get lost in that. The other will keep trying to pull them back into the moment. They challenge eachother and show eachother the possiblities that are out there.
It's with a heavy heart that I say LL and I are not on the same path but still side by side. I opened his eyes to so many things and he saw the future. He knew there were things he needed to address if he were to live his best life.
With that said there is no choosing sides or bashing of the other. No one needs to tell either of us how the one dropped the ball that's not what happened. He saw what he needed to do and I accepted and support that.
Yes my heart is broken and I'm grieving but i also am so proud and happy for him to finally take back what is his, his life. His story is his to tell but becasue so many could see how well we fit and cheered us on I felt this needed to be said.
Some of you will be smug and think that's what you get, others will support us and lift us up. I honestly dont care what you think or say or do because for one month and 10 days I was in my perfect moment.
I will take the time I need and go behind my walls, I will crawl back into my tree and hide. Someday I will rise again for now I will use my blog as always the outlet and journal of my journey.
LL will always be my Lycan I wont ever let go of that or him. I promised always, I meant it.
The winds calm and storms fade away
I stand here once again alone
I watch as you walk away
Not looking back
My heart breaks more
Knowing the fight you have ahead
But trying to do as you said
Staying put being a friend
While you march off into your battle
You continue down your path without me
I turn from you and walk back
To the tree I found comfort in
I sit at the base knees to my chest and cry
I must let you go so you can see what's out there
To let you find your path
So lost and alone my tears over take me
The wind starts to howl around me
I cant hear it's so loud
I try to stand but I get knocked back down
I curl up giving into the wind
I lay there and shiver
Vunerable to the predators
I close my eyes and beg the darkness to take me
In the darkness I am familiar
There is nothing here and it is comfort
Even it wont take me
I am weak, I am lost and I am alone
