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DO NOT BE CONFUSED SIR JAMES HAS PASSED BUT HE LEFT THIS BEHIND FOR US IN CASE IN HIS WORDS WE CARE TO MAKE A BIG DEAL OF IT.

                                                                      INTRODUCTION

    I'm just a man I lived I loved I died obviously or you would not be reading this. This is the story of my life I hope that as you read it you keep in mind that parts are good parts are bad I have done what I have done and I do not apologize for it. I have experienced bigots of every color and religion as well as the good in many you see my ancestry is a mix of scotch, american Indian and Mexican so I was hated by many but i was loved by many as well so all things are equal in the end. But thanks to my parent's I was taught to treat hatred with love at all point's do not hate the bigotry or the person who gives it instead pity them for they close doors that if opened would lead to a better life for them. And because of that teaching I became a dominate man and subdued with love instead of anger. That does not mean I let them walk over me no I always stood up for my beliefs. and frankly now near the end I can say I have no enemy's left no dragons left to slay. With that said I hope you enjoy my life as much reading it as I did living it I hope you laugh at my mistakes and not do them yourself and most of all I hope you end your life as I did surrounded with love and hope for the future of the ones left behind. 

                                                                     chapter 1

   I was born into what I was to learn as a unique family you see not only was I a real mutt my mom and dad were ambiguous sexually that is to say they were both bisexual and had some strange friends over the years. of course i did not figure this out till I was 16 or 17 and when I asked them my father just said yes we are and happy why do you think you are so normal because we knew you would be able to figure your life out with very little help from us odd that but they were right at 18 I was in the army and on my way to Nam I did two tours before  I had enough and left the service I took my money bought a house with my parents cosigning and fixed it up with money from my parents that they had saved for my collage.  After it was fixed up I sold it for about three time what I paid the next house was paid and fixed and sold the same way only this time I did not have to pay the bank. At the same time I met and married it did not work out she could not take the prolonged days that buying fixing and selling homes took some times working 15 hrs a day run home sleep like a rock get up and off to it again. At 26 I was the proud owner of of my first business I bought a construction company from a police officer who found he no longer could handle carrier and the business he started I also gained Dena collage grad with a business degree who was very eager to use it I also had picked up my first coin in dominance I had to it helped me in coming into my own as a man. 

   So here I was a good deal of money in the bank and earning 3% interest when Dena put this plan in front of me outlining the course for the company over the next 5 years and the return I could expect Now I'm not stupid I did not hire her just because she looked good I stayed away from that never play were you eat but we looked it over and she explained in detail what it would cost taking a bank loan for the required capital her plan was very convincing except the only time I dealt with a bank was the first house and the cost of early pay back soured me on borrowing from banks they have there place just not with me and my company. Old saying pay back is a bitch must have its roots in bank's so she was very surprised when I told her it looks good but take it home and figure the costs without the bank and give it to me in the morning She of course gave me the banker look why risk your money that's what banks are for but she did it. To be honest it was not the cost that interested me as much as the time it would free up for me. I was getting tired of 12 to 14 hr days and I wanted time to devote to my other interest's I.E sex like a somewhat normal man. To be continued please let me know in comments if you want to read more it wont be the whole book you will have to buy that. this is a test to see if there is interest in this.       

first let me say thank you to the lady Stacy and Mari for there previous post thank you ladies it will go a long way to explaining this rule and it is one of the more important ones. I was one of the more lucky of the Dom's in that I received my training at the hands of a master and even luckier to receive a sub trained by that master. As she likes to say "he took a backwoods barefoot farm girl and turned her in to a countess" she is as comfortable having a beer on the back deck as she is sipping wine at a box at the met.

   Now let be honest a spanking is rarely a punishment in our lifestyle in most cases it is foreplay same for most pain inducing things not always but in many. So what does that leave us well first let us look at the definition of punishment=the imposition of a penalty for poor behavior in that light punishment can be almost any thing the hates doing and on the ranch there are many chores that fall under this cleaning the stables, washing the horses. fixing tack,and even putting down new straw. You get the general idea it very rarely involve any infliction of pain that is saved for the fun part of life.

   Now lets look at the fun part of life limits are something that we impose on ourselves but the most important of these limit involve those that cause pain ether emotional or physical to others or ourselves for this reason there are universal limits the very first is the use of a child in any form that is one that can be agreed to by most and the ones that do not agree well a ranch always has room for a flower garden and that is the best use for those individuals they at least can make the world a more scenic environment to live in. The second universal is just as simple and carries the same penalty never cause pain to woman who has not ask for it and detailed what kind of pain.  now with that said you can assume that all other limits can be addressed as wanted. But others should be addressed first if you have read the previous blog by Mari and Stacy you will see that those that influence how a sub views them self is counter productive to full enjoyment by the sub and their Dom. And this can and does take a lot of work to change. Here is something to remember and understand the way a sub look's at herself is influenced by others the biggest of these and in Jane's opinion is the fashion industry, by them to be considered beautiful you must fit into certain perimeters but as she said the thing to remember is that those were set by gay men and it is true that at best they dislike a woman's body and at worst hate it outright according to her the best thing to happen to her industry was female designers that at least take into account that women have curves in places that men don't. But my preference is the way sir James says "there is an old saying beauty is in the eye of the beholder" and he said this is the mistake most make they make the assumption that their opinion matters to all instead of accepting the opinion of there Dom as truth they will say this body is now yours but they hold to the opinion that what they see is important or true these notions must be eliminated before they can completely enjoy all the signals that are being sent to the brain this takes time but the Dom and sub must work on this for them to get maximum enjoyment from that body.              

   I must confess this ma be one of the hardest things ether of us will commit to the web. It is much easier to hide the emotional scars but when they are physical as well as emotional you are reminded every day mine from war hers from a sadistic rapist no pity please that is not what this is about. This is about limits prior to sir we both had limits regarding exposure sir changed all that he showed us the difference between victim and survivor was simple it is all how you look at it and even as important how your sir looks at it. You see before I would look at the damage and scars on my lower body as embarrassing that is just another word for victim and the same for Stacy in regards to what he did to her back and breasts. You see part of sir's training is exposure complete exposure he would make you strip and examine your body he would study it commit to memory every inch of you he would then kiss every scar you bore he would let his emotions flow he would show his anger his grief at the damage in our cases this took multiple sessions but by the end he convinced us that we are beautiful because of our scars not in spite of them. He showed us that the limits of what our lovers can and can not see are silly and only harmed us. I will never forget the first time we made love with Jane kissing all my scars removing my foot and both of them kissing the stump not as a sexual thing as an accepting and loving thing when they moved up my legs without paying any particular attention to the scars. The feeling of being loved for who I was not what I was a scared vet.   

   In my case it was easier for me to accept the physical because of Jane the scar from breast cancer was brutal a very half ass'ed   doctor left a terrible scar but she wore it with pride it made mine look good even though i had more the doctor who worked on me was very good and left very small scars and did a good job at reconstructing what was removed. but still it was a mark of a woman to be able to feed her kids and that is not possible in one case. but when he did his magic with me well I can walk around topless with a smile. So as you can see many limits are brought on by your emotions and really have no bearing on you sir's so sub's listen to your sir wishes as well you may find that freeing yourself of some emotional limits will help grow more in touch with the person within yourself that you have been hiding from the world and who will help you more by letting them out.              

   Like we have the private office the ladies each have there own meditation place. It is a small but comfortable pentagon shaped building in it there are shelves for nick-knacks and books a round fire place two widow and a roof sky-lite that opens for flow through ventilation everyone needs a place to center themselves a place to retreat to. sir said that by giving them a place like this and then staying away from it will go a long way to stopping problems before they get out of hand. When i asked him why a wood burning fireplace he said it has to do with our ancestors there is just something about a wood fire that acts on the basic part of the brain watching it is almost like staring into the eyes of god.

   Setting time aside everyday was a vital part of the dynamic it is the communication that makes the dynamic work if you set aside time every day to just talk you will eliminate most problems while they are still small this is the reason most relationships fail. People have a habit of changing or growing a dynamic of any kind is like a living thing and needs feeding at times this is why conversation is the food by witch it thrives and understanding is what makes it grow.     

      while this rule is self explanatory I would like to add something that was stressed during my training. every Dom/Domma should take a basic course in first aid. He reminded me that in our lifestyle as well as in day to day life this is a important skill to acquire and more important for us if you practice some of the more exotic branches even if you just use a collar you can break the hyoid bone by accident.   

   At fist glance it may appear 1 and 3 are the same not to sirs way of looking at it if you were to look at it in a vanilla  relationship then rule 1 is the engagement ring and rule 2 is the marriage, but in our way of looking at things rule 1 is the acceptance for training and rule 2 is the bonding.

   During the training like the engagement is how the Dom and sub learn about each others want's and need's and the rules are worked out for living together and creating the dynamic for the future the face they have agreed to show the world and the face they show each other at home. this involves how the Dom expects the sub to dress act and the rules of behavior they live by. The acceptable fun and punishments to be carried out the time and places each will be performed I.E. are punishment done right away that day or should they be held for certain days of the week is spanking a punishment or foreplay or is stripping and cleaning the oven a punishment or is watching him masturbate to your naked body with out allowing to touch your self any more then is needed to help him without letting you finish your self. There are so many different ways for some one what is punishment and what is foreplay to try to list. 

   This is also the point where you sign the contract sir went through a lot of expense to make sure that his subs are covered legally to make sure they received exactly what he wanted them to receive at the time of signing is when sir would make sure all debts where paid so they could come into the bond as a virgin so to speak. He also created a ceremony of bonding that he would read to those attending exactly what his promise was and the sub would read in front of witnesses what there obligations are to there sir. He had his reasons for this he wanted all to know that to them this was just like a wedding. and every women in sirs case were acknowledged as a wife.

   Sir James also set out what he called the reward system as anyone will admit who has interacted with the ladies will tell you in vanilla world they would be labeled slut's this included the remarkable Jane as a matter of fact between Jane and my perfect wife and sub Rita it would be a race to see who could be better at it sirs surviving ladies can't hold a candle to those two but they are young yet so time will tell. Anyway according to sir depending  on just how long they  could act like ladies and how well they performed in that role would count towards the reward. points were awarded according to each day and how well they did.     thank you Sir John.              

   This come under sir James personal responsibility ethics, the ethic he lived by was simple care for those who care for you. I think the best way to explain his out look is by example and extension sir James was a business man and the kind that always maintained a closely held plan he owned all his business as single owner he did this so that he could make his decisions without consulting with any one but his employee and there needs by this method every thing he owned brought in 10% after tax every employee received between 3 an 19% increases in earnings and other compensation. and god bless her Mari is on track to do the same by following his method. 

   Now by extension what do you owe those who have given you there body and soul? Do you not owe them more? So he came up with a formula to compensate his subs I am not going to tell you more then it boils down to 10% of his yearly income placed into a account to be payed only to them and started with enough to buy a place and maintain it for 1 year but he recognizes most can't do this but the 10% rule can be done if you can't afford this you should rethink and wait to take on the responsibility of a sub unlike other possessions you can't buy a sub on credit. 

questions and private comments may be addressed to me.    

    These are the rules as set forth by sir James. One thing to keep firmly in mind from the moment they submit they do not have to and may leave you at any time so it is up to you to keep them in light of this these are the rules you must live buy if you can not do not try this way remember there are many ways to dominate so chose another way for the two of you no sin in not being able to  do this everyone can find there own way. These are the rules the Dom/Dom-ma must follow.

1) you must set aside money for them if they leave (this is the single most important rule to fallow)

2) from the moment they submit all there debts become yours and you will pay them off as soon as possible.

3) you must provide roof,clothes(not the low end kind unless that is all you can afford) health insurance and food get them a gym membership if you can't monitor them yourself.

4) everyday you must set aside a place of safety for them then stay out of it.

5) you must set aside a minimum of 1 hour either morning or night to talk and listen to each other 

6) you will set the guide lines for both punishment as well as fun but you must take her/his limits in account.

7) no one is perfect you will make mistakes own them and do not repeat them 

8) show her at least 3 times before you consider punishment 

9) once a week get her something she does not need but will like

10) last of the basic take her out for a fun time forget most of the rules and enjoy the spontaneity of the day

Over the next few days I will go into each of the rules so you can understand or question a fine point of the reason. If you are a Dom you may address me in private if you feel it's needed subs may ask the laddies for info or example.       

   It all started the day sir James purchased the land from my grandfather he asked that as part of the purchase that I be kept on. He agreed, in the very old times I would have been considered a serf we come with the land if it changes hands the serf came with the land and the owner is charged with caring for them. At the time I was 17 and just finished high school. Sir James gave me a chose collage for animal husbandry or become his housekeeper I decided to be his housekeeper. Something inside me just told me it was best for me, you see I was trained by my grandmother as a shaman and already had a connection to the sprite of the valley she is an elemental and I think she did not trust the new owner of her valley and he built my grandfather a small cottage (this is what now is a guest shack on the edge of the land) this is were he lived out his life but sir James made sure he had everything he wanted and needed and at the end he joined our ancestors as the sacrifice demanded of the elemental requests.

   I on the other hand was given a chance to become one of sir's ladies I jumped at the chance to become a lady learn how to act and given the chance to become something greater then a glorified maid. Though sirs training I came into my own as a person he sent me to train under more knowledgeable shaman to become the best Jane showed me how to be a women when the time came for me and sir helped me to see the good and bad in me and control myself in all-ways with the two of them I discovered my sexual side as well as shaman wise-women I became. Through them I became the best wife,sub and mother I can be to the best sir I have ever known sir John. together we make sure that this valley and all the other land that sir James controlled and now his ladies eventually sir's children, and they will have the dedicated help they may need. 

   I knew the moment he stepped on to the land that I had my chance to be a women I felt it sing Jane looked at me and smiled and said I thought so go open the door to the rest of your life. He stood there and said I have an appointment with Mr. and stopped and we just looked at each other. He reached out and put his hand on the back of my neck and pulled me to his lips. I was claimed owned and happy when he stopped and stiffened he said I'm sorry sir I have know idea what came over me I had not stopped looking up at him but I heard sir say well I do and Rita take him home dear before you forget you are a lady and start on the entrance to my home. An hour or two later my voice was raw and  was still shacking when he stood and said point me to the kitchen and refrigerator. The wedding was the following month and a month after that we where back at the ranch hiring a maid and cook and stable people and wranglers for sir James and I was the happiest I have ever been until the children of his and mine came along and the valley is just as happy on Jane's ranch a home for wayward women and happy children for years to come. I have even found and started training little one in the ways. I still catch glimpses of grandma, grandpa, sir and Jane. from time to time.                        

   Here is a secret, you know you have the right Sir when he makes the abyss disappear and you see a flower growing where it was.

   He took me on my journey. I walked into his office and said Sir I am ready do whatever I need to make  you mine. He came from around his desk got on one knee holding a choker up to me and said thank you for trying to trust me. It is black to absorb all the dark in you and will be burnt when you are ready to replace it with my collar of training you must put it on yourself and take it off yourself only when you feel you are ready or can no longer withstand the pain. Sometimes no most times people can not stand looking at them selves or what the think they have become but know this you will never be alone on this journey I will be right beside you and holding you and when I feel you have reached your limit for that day I will pull you back and hold you and comfort you till you are ready to go on. Remember you are exposing your self to both of us and it is the scariest thing you will ever face but we have all the time in the world so little bit by little bit you will come to your own freedom you must be there before you can give yourself to some one else's care for the rest of your life you may even find after that you are not ready to give yourself to someone else and that is alright you are not obligated too. 

   And when I put that collar on I felt something between fear and ecstasy I felt so emotional already and we haven't even started he had me lay with my head head in his lap he had me remove my cloths he put a cover over me he put his left hand on my belly and I felt it get hot,  he put his right hand on my head and it felt cool soothing told me to close my eyes and look inside. it felt so right I felt so protected like I was back in daddy's lap again. Over time I told him every bad thing that happened to me every bad thing I ever did and he helped me to forgive and even made me find the joy for what they made me become. The rapes the stealing the jail time when it was time he helped me fill in my abyss and he planted the flower. I will always remember the shear joy i felt when I put that collar in the flame and watched it become ash and when he swept up the ashes and put them in Dena's urn to hold hold for him he said from now on they are mine now and for me to deal with. My freedom lasted an entire week before he let me give myself to him. That was the most intense experience of my life it was so slow in its build-up it was the first time I ever ejaculated by man or woman it was so intense i fainted  and went blind for 10 minutes but it was not the last time he did that to me. I thought I knew what love felt like before I was wrong now I know that  love is not a time or place or person it is a connection of soul to soul that spans time and distance and knowing you will never be alone again because even when they are gone they are still there berried in your soul they live as long as you do only to be rejoined again in a different place and time.  for my sister wives I hope you are happy with this because I will never be this open again. love you all and the sub's I have yet to meet. Stacy the bookkeeper